I kind of thought by this time into it I would be back to square one.
Let me start out with my day 1 check in.
Weight: 135 pounds
Goal: 115 Pounds
Loss goal: 20 pounds
It doesn't seem like a lot, but 20 pounds on someone who isn't even 5 feet tall is a big deal. A really big deal. That is another problem. Most of my life I have had yo-yo weight. In high school I was barely 100 pounds, on average wearing a size 0-2. Yes, I was one of those girls but I still ate like a horse. Its just how the women in my family (on my mother's side) are. We are all small. I have aunts who are literally, shorter than my petite 4'10" self.
Then I got older and the weight and shitty diet started to catch up with me. My biggest downfall has been the fact that I am super lazy. Like, fast food, takeout, restaurants, etc. I've always preferred shitty takeout over a home cooked meal; which is super strange considering my mother is an AMAZING cook. Like... Martha Stewart ain't got SHIT on her.
So, you can see where the problem began. Having children only furthered my problem. The more kids, the less time I had. The more take out. The more fast food, the less time for actual exercise. The pattern so many of us mothers get into. Its nothing uncommon or to be ashamed of. It is simply real life. McDonalds, and Taco Bell cater to the people like us.
After I had Addison I lost a ton of weight, which I attribute to breastfeeding. I got down to 120 pounds at one point in time, fitting easily into a size 4 jeans. I was beyond proud of myself. I didn't feel as self conscious as I am now. I looked good, and I felt great.
Then she got older. She weaned. I wasn't burning the extra calories. We moved to the South and continued to shitty eating habits with even shittier food. Again, furthering the problem.
Many people can look at me and say... "You don't need to lose any weight..." and I've gotten that. A LOT. But, its not about wanting to be a perfect size 1 model. It's about wanting to be HEALTHY. It's about NOT wanting to be considered "clinically obese" because I am not even five feet tall.
You don't look at me and think... Wow! She looks fat. And if I am being honest... I go out of my way to hide my weight. It mainly hangs in my gut (which I may add was SCREAMING in that dress) or in my ass. Which I absolutely love my thick ass but... I just want to be HEALTHY.
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| January 1st, 2015 |
I want to run after my children and not be winded. I want to feel comfortable in a bathing suit on the beach. I want to NOT be considered OBESE! This isn't about some modern day ideology about how women should look. This is just about being HEALTHY.
With all that being said. I am on day four, and have been flying along.
My day four check in numbers:
Weight: 130lbs
Loss: 5lbs
Loss Goal: 15 pounds
In these first few days all I have gone is clean eating, and the first 3 day cleanse of the 24 day Advocare challenge. I've done two days at the gym (heading for my third in a new minutes) and that is all. It is downright amazing how much can change just by making simple adjustments to your eating. No, I'm not living on carrots or rabbit food.
This morning I had a protein pancake:
All this is... One Banana, 1 egg (whites only) 1/2 teaspoon of vanilla, and my vanilla meal replacement shake. And it was delicious.
Last night? I made a turkey meatloaf with onions and peppers in it. Delicious.
Anyway... that is my check in for my first couple days. Boom!
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